mardi, janvier 31, 2006

i had a dream 2 nights ago...

its one of the weirdest dreams ever... my 1st bf (of course he's an ex) have hsv 2 daw! and he's soooo depressed that he had to turn to me for comfort... weird talaga. i havent seen him for how many months na and all of a sudden, i dream about him... oh well... just curious what the dream meant. so i'm gonna search it. ;p (hehehe tama to, FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 ANDITO BF KO!!!! HE SAW WHAT I WAS TYPING ABOUT!!!! FUCK TALAGA!!!! OMG!

anyways, cool cool.

fuck. impulse ko un itago to eh. xempre, secret blog ko to eh. anyways, abt the dream ulet.

Sick Upset. Unwell. Part of yourself is ready to be healed.

Crying Emotional release. Grief. Domestic trials are on the way. Emotions need to be released.

this is the closest i could find. actually m kinda disturbed coz of what happened. he walked out. hay.

lundi, janvier 30, 2006

i have a new skin people!
what do u think?! ;p

vendredi, janvier 27, 2006

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i cant wait to have my 1st cup of coffee for today. i stopped drinking coffee last month kse.... *secret* so im drinkin healthy drinks instead like tea for my sympathies ;p anyways, its friday and i wont be going home (again). i'm too tired to go out. fudge. im gettin older na talaga :( waaaaah.

anyway, im gonna invite one of my girlfriends to watch a movie tonight or im gonna sleep and get lots of rest... lately i discovered a lot about myself. thanks to tickle. hehhe that my hollywood counterpart was winona. naks. hehehehe ;p

anyways gonna do my tickle muna.

mercredi, janvier 25, 2006

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watchin several episodes of house made me realize something last night.
It's so easy to die than to live. there are so many simple/seemingly insignificant moments that could easily make us sick and unwell. wala lang. freaky pero it made me realize that everyday in our lives is indeed a miracle. :)

just like a drop of water hanging from the faucet,
we wait everyday until we finally fall
wherever it may take us.

lundi, janvier 23, 2006

what can't kill you only makes u stronger.

Last nite, i was watching reality tv with humhum... it was about doctors (hehe) setting: US. a guy went to the hospital due to abd pains, vommiting, nausea, diarrhea... for quite sometime the doctors thought it was viral, but he was unresponsive to acyclovir, ribavirin and the like. he's married. has 3 kids. he was brought in by his wife.

the doctors were clueless regarding his diagnosis...they tried giving him an antibiotic and it kinda stabilized him.... he was discharged even if the mds dont have any diagnosis... he cameback to the er a few hours later wth the same symptoms... still doctors were clueless..

until, he was asked abt his marital relationship. he's goin thru a divorce.... well, that didnt really help with uncovering his diagnosis (but this will be pertinent later, promise) he was discharged again and was maintained on a gluten-free diet... he abided for quite sometime and he got better. but he couldnt believe that he was allergic to gluten so he tried eating small amts of bread...and hence, admission.
same cycle. he was discharged and now, was more convinced that he has allergies.

one time he was brushing his teeth when he noticed so many empty packages of ho hum i forgot what it was called. basta un, he was curious abt it and he confronted his wife. his wife had gone mad and he called up the hospital and he managed to get his wife admitted into the psych ward.... they investigated the package and it was indeed, poison.... grabe noh????????

whatta pyscho.

anyways, like what i said, what can't kill u only makes u stronger.

oh by th way, the poisonous thang --- CASTOR BEANS.

what u thought can kill u, in fact only makes u stronger...
and sometimes, what u think makes u stronger...actually kills u.

vendredi, janvier 06, 2006


Just when you think it's helping.... it's actually killing you.

I remember when i was young, about 6 years old, and my lungs are still virgin, ;p i always see my dad smoking and i despised the stingky aroma of tobacco. I even went to the extent of hiding my father's ream coz that's how much i disliked sticks.

That's my first touch of Marlboro reds... Ho hum!

Name any brand of cigartte manufactured before 2000, i've tried it! tsktsktsk... and now, my 10-pack year of smoking history is finally ending (really!)

What's hard about it is it actually has become a part of my lifestyle... without me even knowing et... before, i used to say that i only smoke whenever i'm badtrip or sad... and then stressful...and then whenever i'm thinkin hard.... and then while im talking to someone i find intresting to talk to.... and then when im happy.... and while taking a bath...while drinking coffee... name it. i have become and addict. a slave...

now... i wont deny that nicotine still runs in my blood, pero less na.

i'm not a slave anymore...

just somebody who likes to smoke ONCE IN AWHILE.

you never really get to realize how much u change til u get shocked out of your apathy coz something big awaits you.

jeudi, janvier 05, 2006

Less is more.

Insomia made me a couch potato before i fall asleep.
I was watchin one of those discovery segments of "house to home"
its really a nice show if ur into interior designing and architecture design.
pero they said something quite unexpected.. Less is more.

Kaboom! all thoughts of the past flooded my mind as if they were footprints in the sand...leavin' a mark. its true...when u have less clutter in ur life, u'll find more room to annd relax... nice huh?

anyways, last nite, while i was havin a good time with my friends, somebody texted me. he "made" this quote daw for me... sooo touching. here goes: "Life has its own way of telling us who to be with and who not to be with...People come and go in our journey....some will be there coz of the true meaning of love...some because they thought they have found love...others will be there because they want to be loved.. Nonetheless, i would be there for u not because i'm looking but because i want to live in love.... " --- un. so touching!!!! :) really made me smile.

anyways, got nothing much to say really. ;p